so i just got updates on my student loans. the little slips of paper saying you borrowed this much you intrest is this much this is what you will end up paying us and you'll be doing it for ten years.....well i have a small one and a big one from a university and college.

i feel so lost. For the next couple years i will be spending thousands of dollars on these things for bits of informations that when it comes down to the line won't compleatly help me.

I'm pissed that i can't find a good paying solid job to start paying these things off and i'm afraid that i won't ever be able to go back to school....*side note* i hate school and i don't wantto go back to the college i was attending but i do want to go to the university again *end side note*

oh and just so people know my state has one of the lowest minimum wages. its $6.15 an hour for Large business and $5.25 for small.....

the federal wage is 7.25....

we're way behind times and i don't think we're gonna catch up soon.

if you do the math *shrugs* thats not worth much when you put in how far i live from town and how much gas i'm gonna use. infact you can see all my money would be going to gas.

i really just feel lost. I feel like i've lost site of what i wanted in life, what i wanted to do with my life.....

and seriously toying with the idea of going for like the peace core or military who willpay for my dept and fix me up with a job to make me feel like i'm doing something with my life.